Richard Wilbur best describes how my mind feels as of late leading up to my Ecuadorian departure:
" Mind in its purest play is like some bat
That beats about in caverns all alone,
Contriving by a kind of senseless wit
Not to conclude against a wall of stone."
My mind seems to be everywhere and nowhere lately at the same time. I can't complain too much, I've had an amazing summer of not much work (a few WOW Colorado camps) and a good bit of traveling. I talked to Celia today and realized that I have seen a few cousins in Whistler and Kennett Square, ridden some amazing trails, hiked a 13er near Brekenridge, been to a wedding (and about to leave for another), and of course particpated in some other hardcore and intense type activities.
But I can't stop thinking - who should I call? who could I talk to? who cares? and what good will it do to contact people before I leave? who will break into my storage unit (ironically located near my previous place of employment)? what can a fit in to these last few days without completely losing my mind and still getting everything done that I need too? will I be able to hold a job down for more than one year ever? do I want to hold a job down for more than one year ever? I do, but it has to be the right job in the right place...
I am happy. I am happy to see all these people before I leave (more of those people should/ could be pictured ). I am happy to be on the brink of experiencing a new culture, a new country, a new place.
If you've gotten this far, congrats, I aim to be more concise and matter of fact in future blogs, but maybe I won't be...
As I prepare to leave for Guayaquil, Ecuador, I can't help but feel lucky and thankful for all my friends - not just the crazy bros pictured above, but everyone in my life...said goodbye to Nate today, I'm hoping that this journal and writing in general will keep me occupied and less feelings of homesickness and missing people will result
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